Reassuring Things
i forgot to post something last night, so thought i'd do it now.

At Meeting yesterday we had some visiting Mormons, who are grandchildren of one of our members. The mother brought two of them to my class. i asked how old they were and told the mother and the 13 year old girl that she would probably be more comfortable in the teen group. They looked a bit worried about that and i found myself surprised to see that i was winking at them. i suppose i was trying to reassure them.

i think i must wink at folks pretty often without realizing it. This was a relief to me, after winking at my yoga instructor. Not that that wasn't still inappropriate, but at least it made me feel that i'm not a cruel cock-teasing slut, just an ordinary slut.

Another reassuring thing is that when we made love last night, miraculously i was able to hold off on cumming until he came. i was able to think, to the extent that i was thinking coherently at all, that it was my arousal that was so pleasing to S. He confirmed that afterwards, saying, "you did well, you were very exciting, i like to get you excited to the point beyond all reason." When i did cum, it felt again more emotional than physical in nature, except for feeling very deeply relaxed.