i didn't wear my plug at work today. i thought i left it at home. Then when i got home i realized it had been in my purse the whole time. It's still a bit hectic in the morning since i'm not used to the timing of the summer schedule yet.

For the moment i am caught up with laundry, oh there's always some mending that i can do or decide to just give the clothes away or toss them. And cleaning drapery etc. That hasn't been done in a while.

S finished up the dishes last night and that seems to be going smoothly too, and is beginning to take less time as i get the hang of it.

So this evening i started to work on the membership reports for May. i even braved starting a spreadsheet! i think that will make it easier in the future to keep track of dates, etc. i need to draft two new letters for that, which shouldn't take long.

i feel tired and if i try to look at the bigger picture of all i might want to do, i can get overwhelmed again. So it's easier to focus on one step at a time. So goals: i'm still working on the graduation gifts, vacation plans (it looks like we will just go on day trips or long week-ends), and first day school summer program. The graduation gifts are the most urgent. If we only go away for long week-ends, then it isn't that urgent because i don't have to clear my schedule at work. And i'm not the only one responsible for the summer program.

So overall i feel quite content today. i had two patients leave treatment, at least for the time being. One cured by tincture of time and the other totally ambivalent about whether she needs treatment or not. She comes in when her depression becomes overwhelming, then leaves a few months later telling me that she won't commit to anything. It's a bit sad because i've been working with her for several years (off and on) and now that she's older (college aged), she is less open and much more guarded. She used to think she might be gay, now she adamantly states that she is not. She spends a lot of time squelching herself and her feelings. Every once in a while i get a terrible fear that she is going to develop schizophrenia. i think she also fears this at times.

There was one patient i was almost tempted to teach some of the kundalini yoga to today. To give it a fair chance i want to try it with someone where our relationship is stronger. i have someone coming in tomorrow who is in crisis and it might be helpful for her.

i seem to be having some cramping, perhaps it is the errant period deciding to start after all. i'm going to lay down and see.