There are times when i think i can't be more aroused and then i am surprised again.

Sometimes soon after i put the plug in, i find i am walking about in almost a daze, needing to take deep breaths or grab on to something. Shortly after i take it out my cunt is very damp indeed, but in a rather more peaceful sort of way.

Today at work i closed my door, the blinds and lay down on the couch (not an analysts couch, just a somewhat shabby couch) and masturbated with the vibe. Sometimes i put my jacket over my lap, just in case someone should open the door without knocking -- they never have yet-- and my office is cold, so i could pretend to be taking a nap and humming to myself (ha ha who am i kidding). Anyway, it is only here at home, reflecting about it, that i feel a bit embarassed about masturbating at work, when i'm there i feel no problem with it at all.

i like to put the vibe in as deeply as i can and turn it on and just feel what i feel, not touch my clit or my cunt, but just feel the plug and the vibe and watch my arousal. Today i felt it rise and calmed myself with some deep breaths then let it rise again and again, until i finally really felt that i could not go farther without cumming. It took a few minutes before i could sit up and then stand up, my clit aching somewhat. Fortunately i had a bit of time before the next patient for things to subside a bit.

When we went to the concert (quite wonderful, Anthony Molinaro on piano, plus some Ravel that i hadn't heard before), i felt quite aroused being with S. Especially as we were walking to the church from the car and he took my hand. He was guiding me as to where to walk, next to him, or behind him, so that there would be more room for others to pass. i attended to this more than usual, letting him guide me and found it very arousing. During the concert i put a hand on his thigh and he covered it with his hand, that was very nice too. What can i say, sometimes i'm easy to please.

The concert was a fundraiser for services to prevent domestic violence, which seemed particularly appropriate at this time in my life. Somehow a needed balance to yet again have someone reflect on how peace begins at home in small things.

Music is so special to S. The best present i ever got for him was his ipod. And i should have spent the extra $50.00, because he's already filled this one up. At some point i may pick up my flute again and give it a whirl. S said he'd like to play a piece with me and i said to go ahead and get the music so i can learn it. He hasn't so far, but i think if i started playing on my own , he might actually go ahead and order the score.

Well, there's only so many hours in a day, and i want to get some rest to be ready for tomorrow.